Finding strength in the Lord

I find myself getting angry some days. Wondering why no one knows when Kalli can get rid of the oxygen. Why we can't get an answer as to why she still needs it. I still don't understand what caused my body to stop working. It doesn't seem fair. Then I realize there are people with MUCH bigger problems than dealing with some silly oxygen. Kalli will eventually out grow this, we hope. But other families aren't so lucky. I then get mad at myself for feeling this anger. Kalli is ALIVE. I could have easily lost her. I also have another beautiful healthy girl. The Lord did not have to give me either of my sweet babies, but He chose to. For that I am thankful. I worry that I seem ungrateful at times. I've found myself yelling at God, wanting to know why He did this to us. But then I realize, He is not a cruel God. He is loving and kind. I feel like he is letting us go through this storm to make us stronger. Even though I can't understand right now, I know there is a reason for this. The joy I have in my heart for my two girls is indescribable. My husband is an amazing man that has been my rock. We're approaching our 8 year anniversary and I am more in love with him today than I was the day I married him.
I found some verses that helped remind me where to find strength. I'm sure I will still have my days of weakness but, I know where I can look to regain that strength.
This has been the hardest 8 weeks of my life. But, I've also been given 8 weeks with my precious baby and I pray for many more. I needed to be reminded that God is on my side even though the devil wants me to think otherwise. I wanted to help remind you as well....

Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.



1 Chronicles 16:11 Seek the LORD and his strength; seek his presence continually!


Exodus 15:2 The LORD is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation; this is my God, and I will praise him, my father’s God, and I will exalt him.